Elizabeth
Gilbert’s examination of home in Eat,
Pray, Love becomes a worldwide search for something that seems to have
lived within her all along. This is a theme we have encountered before in our
Homelands texts, but Gilbert’s memoir focuses on the power of the journey to
bring us to this self actualization. As we travel along side Gilbert to Italian
restaurants, Indian Ashrams and Indonesian rice paddies, we must consider the
kind of dedication this journey requires, and question if we can achieve it in
our own lives. While everyone’s journey to inner peace is different, it leads
us to the threshold of fear, and then the common homeland within the self.
Gilbert encounters this homeland on
several occasions before seemingly settling there at the close of the book.
Frankly, I thought Gilbert’s dark journeys into her self were kind of
frightening with all of their otherworldly transcendence, which is why I find
it so difficult to relate to this particular homeland. I actually find it easier to understand the
homeland of a young dreamer (East, West)
or a Maori native (Potiki) then to
comprehend the almost supernatural sensations that overcome Gilbert during her
meditation. As I find myself rolling my
eyes at yet another account of her plunge into almost delirious spirituality (and
I do not mean that disrespectfully) I remember Gilbert’s description of those
coming to the Ashram for the first time for the week long retreat of silence
and solitude. What unites all of these
new comers and links them to Gilbert and every other human being is their initial
fear. I found this idea the most striking and, for me, it has become the most
relatable concept of the memoir. In bead 65, we see the fear of the new
arrivals manifest itself in trivial complaints and concerns. These acts and
distractions are all hiding the deep and raw fear of having to face yourself.
Whenever
we embark on a new journey, whether it’s the beginning of college or the end,
the beginning of a relationship, or the end, we must take a good look at ourselves
in order to understand how our journeys transform us...and this can be a pretty
scary thing. We must consider the things
which distract us from examining ourselves—alcohol? The opposite sex? Vanity? As
I pondered these questions, I was struck by my obvious opposition to explore my
own self. I have historically never liked keeping a journal; in fact, I’m
pretty much against it. I always hear that journaling is a great way to alleviate
and organize your mind, but all I could think of was cringing at what I looked
like on paper... “Did I really say those things? Did I really think and act that
way?” I was, and still am, afraid to see myself.
Gilbert’s
self discovery led to the recognition of the homeland within herself. Many of
us are still struggling to find our medium of self discovery, but by at least
contemplating our various journeys in life, we may have some idea of how things
morph us into the people we are. It took Gilbert quite a while to surmount her
fear, which kept creeping up throughout the memoir. What we learn from those new comers in the
Ashram and from Gilbert’s memoir in general is that it is okay to be afraid,
because after all, fear is the first part of the journey.
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